But when he found help — from an unexpected source — everything changed.
“I was abusing painkillers, no question,” he said. “It helped with the pain of the injuries, and with the pain of being gay. I just didn’t worry about being gay when I took the Vicodin. I just didn’t worry.”
He then began isolating himself from his friends and family. At his cabin near Kansas City, he had guns and a suicide note that was already written.